Thursday, October 6, 2011
The End is Near!! Or should I say the beginning??
Stay tuned.....postings of current product offerings to be posted soon....
Friday, January 28, 2011
Sat Jan 29 224.5
Holy crap! 6 weeks til Oregon! I have 6 weeks to lose 25 lbs! Definitely need to get on the ball! I will have to kick my butt in gear and do this! I need to be under 200 by March 11! I have wasted 3 weeks on the diet and ended up gaining 5 lbs...well no wonder with eating all the candy Krystal brought over and polishing off the ice cream..what was I thinking?! Past is the past....move forward....
On a more serious note....
Happy Birthday Martin....miss you and love you...you would be so proud of Araya...
She's getting so big...so much so that she totally reminds me of you. She's now in cheerleading along with Jujitsu...she's smart and has alot of your personality! Stubborn!
On a more serious note....
Happy Birthday Martin....miss you and love you...you would be so proud of Araya...
She's getting so big...so much so that she totally reminds me of you. She's now in cheerleading along with Jujitsu...she's smart and has alot of your personality! Stubborn!
Friday, January 21, 2011
Fri Jan 21-221.5
Doing good on getting back to at least 219.5 by Monday. Just kicking myself for wasting 2 weeks! Ugh....
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Wed Jan 19- 223
Trying to do good on the EF but with the stress of the new job, I am eating crazy.
I am glad to have lost 4 lbs of what I gained....would love to get back to 219 by Monday....TTFN
I am glad to have lost 4 lbs of what I gained....would love to get back to 219 by Monday....TTFN
Monday, January 17, 2011
Jan 17- 227, back on EF, day 1.
Ok, after a wasted week with bingeing and purging, I gained back 7.5 lbs. No blaming, no excuses. I screwed up...BUT I did have a breakthrough. I realize now that while I succumbed to the temptation to binge...it was not pretty when I got on the scale today. At least I know that the majority of it is temp weight gain as I flooded myself with major water as I gave in....
I have started the EF in earnest today. I will hopefully continue the EF until I can get back to where I was before the stupid binge! No matter, I will not let the minor setback affect me more then the time it takes me to write this post. I won't dwell on my stumble. It's been a long hard journey to get the weight off so far, and I will not let this minor speedbump change the course of my journey. I have always been so ready to forgive others when they have let me down in some way or another, so I will begin to forgive the one who should matter the most to me. If I cannot forgive myself, how can I truly grow as a person and acknowledge the fact that I have done an awesome job so far with my weight loss! I have lost 57.5 lbs so far! When I started this journey, I couldn't have even dreamed that I would have lost that much in a short time! I say short because over 4 months (and I wouldn't even count Dec because I totally went off plan) That's 16 weeks at a loss of 3.6 lbs per week...I am definitely proud of that accomplishment. I will not gloss over it and not pat myself on the back for that....
Sometimes the whole process seems so overwhelming and daunting...I know that I didn't put the weight on overnight, and I refuse to expect miracles overnight! I am trying to manage my behaviors and figure out the real reason I binge....I binge and I cannot manage my portions....Two big roadblocks when you're trying to lose weight, don't you think?! lol I have changed over to smaller plates/bowls. I need to work on portioning out the food prior to cooking, maybe that'll help....The bingeing is another story. I binge for the most part and self sabotage because of fear. I am afraid of success....If I succeed, I will have no excuse for not going out and living my life. Do I deserve to be happy? Do I deserve to find that special man to spend my days (and nights) with? Too often in the past, my answer would have been..NO....not anymore. I finally realized what I have been doing! Why did I let it continue for so long?! That is my only regret, but now I know that my answer to everything is YES!!!! I deserve to succeed, I deserve to be happy and to find that man that's gonna rock my world! With each pound lost, I see now that I am slowly succeeding in my goal! I never looked at it like that before...now my eyes are seeing a totally different picture....WOW....talk about looking at things through rose colored glasses....mine were more like blacked out glasses! I am resolute....I know it's not healthy to dwell on my failures so onward and upward! I AM human and I WILL make mistakes....no one is perfect. I am grateful for the opportunity to be able to take the steps in the right direction and carve out a better, healthier life for myself.....
DAY ONE of my new and better life.....
I have started the EF in earnest today. I will hopefully continue the EF until I can get back to where I was before the stupid binge! No matter, I will not let the minor setback affect me more then the time it takes me to write this post. I won't dwell on my stumble. It's been a long hard journey to get the weight off so far, and I will not let this minor speedbump change the course of my journey. I have always been so ready to forgive others when they have let me down in some way or another, so I will begin to forgive the one who should matter the most to me. If I cannot forgive myself, how can I truly grow as a person and acknowledge the fact that I have done an awesome job so far with my weight loss! I have lost 57.5 lbs so far! When I started this journey, I couldn't have even dreamed that I would have lost that much in a short time! I say short because over 4 months (and I wouldn't even count Dec because I totally went off plan) That's 16 weeks at a loss of 3.6 lbs per week...I am definitely proud of that accomplishment. I will not gloss over it and not pat myself on the back for that....
Sometimes the whole process seems so overwhelming and daunting...I know that I didn't put the weight on overnight, and I refuse to expect miracles overnight! I am trying to manage my behaviors and figure out the real reason I binge....I binge and I cannot manage my portions....Two big roadblocks when you're trying to lose weight, don't you think?! lol I have changed over to smaller plates/bowls. I need to work on portioning out the food prior to cooking, maybe that'll help....The bingeing is another story. I binge for the most part and self sabotage because of fear. I am afraid of success....If I succeed, I will have no excuse for not going out and living my life. Do I deserve to be happy? Do I deserve to find that special man to spend my days (and nights) with? Too often in the past, my answer would have been..NO....not anymore. I finally realized what I have been doing! Why did I let it continue for so long?! That is my only regret, but now I know that my answer to everything is YES!!!! I deserve to succeed, I deserve to be happy and to find that man that's gonna rock my world! With each pound lost, I see now that I am slowly succeeding in my goal! I never looked at it like that before...now my eyes are seeing a totally different picture....WOW....talk about looking at things through rose colored glasses....mine were more like blacked out glasses! I am resolute....I know it's not healthy to dwell on my failures so onward and upward! I AM human and I WILL make mistakes....no one is perfect. I am grateful for the opportunity to be able to take the steps in the right direction and carve out a better, healthier life for myself.....
DAY ONE of my new and better life.....
Saturday, January 15, 2011
Jan 15- 220.5
Going up and down on the scale...can't get away from the bingeing! Had another binge today, had 2 breakfast burritos(really??, why 2?) Had my water, then about 3 or 4, had to snack size snickers, and 3 large chocolate covered pretzels! (Why, I say...why?!) After, I cooked up 4 taquitos, put on a bed of lettuce, tomatoes, cheese, sour cream and salsa with rice and beans...way too much food, but I forced it down....I don't know why I sabotage myself! I will start clean tomorrow since meals and snacks are done for today.
My game plan is to start the EF once again. I have great results, but after more than 7 days straight of eggs, I start to gag at the smell of them...if I scramble them, I get major heartburn, so I must stick with poaching them.
Trying no to think about the job, or Trish and the baby....just praying that everything is awesome with all three.
Ang is supposed to watch the girls tonight while Ron take Ali out for her birthday...I'm not watching them, I wasn't asked, so I will not have them out here in the living room. They can stay in Ang's room with her. I will not be babysitting them for free anymore! I am not a flippin dump site! They both have jobs, and they are majorly taking advantage of two people who are unemployed!! At least I will not do it anymore.... If they want to ask her, then they need to stay in her room! I know I am being bitchy....but I'm not catering to anyone anymore. I am gonna live my life, even if I just lie on the couch and do nothing! Think I'm gonna take a shower before they come down to drop the girls off.....
My game plan is to start the EF once again. I have great results, but after more than 7 days straight of eggs, I start to gag at the smell of them...if I scramble them, I get major heartburn, so I must stick with poaching them.
Trying no to think about the job, or Trish and the baby....just praying that everything is awesome with all three.
Ang is supposed to watch the girls tonight while Ron take Ali out for her birthday...I'm not watching them, I wasn't asked, so I will not have them out here in the living room. They can stay in Ang's room with her. I will not be babysitting them for free anymore! I am not a flippin dump site! They both have jobs, and they are majorly taking advantage of two people who are unemployed!! At least I will not do it anymore.... If they want to ask her, then they need to stay in her room! I know I am being bitchy....but I'm not catering to anyone anymore. I am gonna live my life, even if I just lie on the couch and do nothing! Think I'm gonna take a shower before they come down to drop the girls off.....
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Wed Jan 12, 2011 219.5
Godd morning! Feel great, weigh in this morning showed another 1.5 lb loss! Yay...
I am happy that I got offered the job at WVH! Alex told me to complete the online application and once the personality test was sent, they would schedule me for orientation...provided the starting rate is at least 12/hr. I am praying that the LORD will look down on me with his grace and see to it that I make what I need to in order to support myself and Ang. I have faith that all will work out the way it needs to be. In GOD'S name...AMEN...
I am happy that I got offered the job at WVH! Alex told me to complete the online application and once the personality test was sent, they would schedule me for orientation...provided the starting rate is at least 12/hr. I am praying that the LORD will look down on me with his grace and see to it that I make what I need to in order to support myself and Ang. I have faith that all will work out the way it needs to be. In GOD'S name...AMEN...
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