catch up

OMG! my online courses are making me feel as though I am in a trap! One of them especially, the instructor expects 6-8 hrs a day of studying.....when the hell are you supposed to work or have a life?!?! She is absolutely nuts I tell you! Anyhoo...on to what's been going on with me. Still a fat cow, seriously thinking about buying the hoopnotica hoop and dvd set to try. I am starting tomorrow on the managing the food thing....excellent recipes from the Cook yourself thin show on lifetime! I am really excited about trying some of those....I realized that I am killing myself....it's embarrassing to say, but it is difficult to clean in the bathroom with this huge fat gut that I now have! It's mortifying.....all I can do is start working out with my bellydance and hula dancing dvd's that I currently have....I need to do something....I refuse to be that fat woman and my kid's sporting events.... I refuse to be the fat mom....I REFUSE!!!!!!